It’s not about what everyone else says
It’s not about letting people guess
It’s about taking those risks that will make us stronger
The risk that will make this last longer
I know what I feel and I know what I say
I told u I will remind you every day
I would just feel better if I knew
The reasons u chose me when u could’ve had some other dude
Never been confident on who I am
Never took pride in anything I do
Everybody is looking for something that will give them glam
I just want something that will bring me closer to you
Wanting what I can’t have
Idk why I just told u everything about how I feel…my feeling for u…I knew nothing was gonna happen…now our friendship is just gonna be weird…I’ve only ever fallen for two girls…one dumped me and now denies everything and now u…I’ve never felt so friendzoned in my life…how did I survive this long with u talking about hazel like that…I can’t seem to stop crying into this pillow…my jaw hurts…I haven’t felt like this in a while…stupid emotions why can’t I just fast forward to my wedding day whenever that may be…I’m tired of playing this guessing game cuz I can never win…I’ve tried to be the best person I can be…I’ve always been there for those in need no matter what the circumstances were…why can’t I just win one time…
I’m getting tired of these stupid things called feelings…
Like seriously idk why I get all emotional…there’s only a few people in my life that can make me feel as bad as I do now and one of those people don’t deserve to have that power over…some secrets are better left unsaid but I say them out of anger.. I wish I could just go back 3 years and make sure nothing ever happened because even though it was the best time of my life, its not worth all the pain and suffering its causing now…I think I would’ve been a hell of a lot better off if nothing ever happened…maybe I would be able to move on and enjoy parts of life that I could’ve been enjoying…I don’t even know what I’m rambling on about anymore but it seems pointless now
Cant thug life everything…
Felt like this the other day :(
